Weekly Update 3/6/18 – Anxiety, Distraction, and Missing Deadlines – but YES the comic is FINALLY available!

Hey guys! Julian here.

It has been an exhausting month. Couple of months. Year? I don’t know. I’m pretty much too exhausted from anxiety to really calculate it! My (clinical) anxiety has been overwhelming lately and I’ve struggled to even go to work. BUT. Many good things are happening too.

I had gotten badly distracted working on Tarot projects, which is fine except that I’d set myself a deadline and didn’t meet it. Which frustrates me. But I did finally finish it…and here it is!!

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My Life On The Sidelines: The Not-So-Magical World of Magical Girls, As Explained By Joel Rowan – Prologue: This Is Not My Story.

But you can call it the MLOTS Prologue. (I do.)

It’s a 24page stapled comic booklet and is available here at my Etsy shop. You can get it for under $5 USD because it’s on sale this month, and the shipping is very affordable! I’m really proud to have this under my belt, and I promise, the next chapter is coming soon. 🙂


 

It’s time for the next project though. My second big project this year, the biggest project, is to create my first 79-card Tarot deck. (Yes, it’s going to have a bonus card, as many indie decks do. I’m actually keeping that 79th card a secret until it’s available for purchase.)

*Please note that I’m not talking about the Starcatcher Oracle here – that is a more personal project; this is something that is going to be available for sale next year (mid 2019).

The theme of the deck has shifted a lot and is more about my experience of spirituality, and my memories of the Other Side. (It’s even currently called the Otherside Tarot!) [Note: This Tarot deck was later renamed the Julian Tarot.] It’s all about the struggles and beauty of being a spiritual being having a physical experience, as they say.

It’s going to be in more or less my usual art style, but will be colored in colored pencil, which I love using. The themes include the power of spirituality, acceptance, personal development, and shadow work; the look and feel of the Other Side; and lots and lots of pastels, angels, and high-vibe energy. A lot of it is influenced by my own recovery process from addiction, mental illness, and trauma, and I want to not only depict those processes (in a gentle way), but create a tool to be used in such processes.

It will take the better part of a year to do all this art, and it may very well take the rest of this year, but I am determined to create this deck and have it released on my 30th birthday (in mid 2019). I truly want to create something worthwhile, and whether it sells well or not, I intend to really put my energy and my soul into this deck, this tool, this creation.

With that being said, here’s a teaser…

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This is my 10 of Swords. It’s an image of one being forgiving another for harm done, and cutting the energetic cords that bind them together in that cycle of shame, guilt, anger, and resentment. Forgiveness, combined with true compassion, does not absolve the abuser of their actions, but it does free BOTH abuser and victim from the bondage and fallout of that trauma.

I know this isn’t exactly a traditional 10 of Swords, but it’s what the 10 of Swords means to me, and I think it’s a slightly more helpful image, perhaps, at least in some situations, than the traditional image of a man lying dead with swords piercing him through.

Anyway, yeah, that’s what I’m working on right now. Please subscribe in order to stay updated whenever I post about this and other projects. Thanks for all your support, and have a really excellent day!

~Julian

Weekly Update 2/20/18 | Completing My Life On The Sidelines Prologue, Designing an Oracle Deck, and Balancing Projects

[Image: The Wishing Well card, #1, from my upcoming Starcatcher Oracle deck.]

Hey y’all!

My gosh, I have been BUSY. Life…work…conventions…and art and cards…*zones out more*

So. First off: Yes, I missed had to reschedule my deadline for My Life On The Sidelines. It’s unfortunate, but I had to – I just could not work last week, and that was the last week I had to work. Fortunately, I’m very nearly done, so that should be done by the next time I update. This particular comic has gone much more smoothly than my previous projects, and I think I’ve worked in a balanced way – or, at least, a more balanced way than I have done past projects.

I’ve already jumped into the next project, though, which is typical of me. I’m now working on…the Starcatcher Oracle! It’s a deck of oracle cards (similar to to tarot but without the typical Tarot system) and it is inspired by my own spiritual/mental landscape and language of symbols.

The Bouquet sketch

I believe that all tarot and oracle decks are languages of symbols, and different decks/systems just have different vocabulary in that same language. So this is a deck of MY symbolic vocabulary, the set of symbols that MY subconscious speaks and thinks in.

This particular copy – these physical cards – are MY copy of the Starcatcher Oracle, and depending, it may be the only version that ever exists. However, I’m hopeful that this will lead to me making actual illustrations and having them printed as a deck.

Why am I doing this? For the same reason that English students are encouraged to write and speak in English, and Spanish students are encouraged to write and speak in Spanish, as much as possible. In the same vein, I’m “speaking” in the language of symbols, specifically the ones that work for me, by making this deck.

The art isn’t actually the most important part, for me, and that’s been hard to accept. I always asked “why do deck ‘Authors’ get so much credit? Why is there not more credit for the people who actually made the cards? Why is Doreen’s name so big on this box??!” (I still wonder SOME of that.) But I never realized how much planning, thought, and research goes into just deciding on those symbolic images and the titles and the keywords and guidebook. It’s not as easy as one might guess; it’s not JUST drawing 78 (or 80, or 88) images. It’s designing everything from the color language to the density of symbols in each card. THAT is often what “deck creators” who don’t do the art, actually do. And it is valid, challenging work.

So yeah. I have a new appreciation for deck/guidebook authors. I do still think that the artists’ names should be much more prominent on packaging and advertisements for decks, but we can’t have everything right away.

I’ve illustrated one of the cards fully and have sketched several more. The one I’ve completed is the Wishing Well

The Shaman sketch

And my favorites that I’ve sketched are The Bouquet, The Drifting Ashes, and The Shaman. The Shaman illustrates beautifully how I’m going about my goal of creating a “naturally diverse” deck. What I mean by naturally diverse is, as opposed to “intentionally diverse.” In my humble opinion, intentionally diverse decks (and media) use tokens and try to check off every minority they can manage to include, as if we are but boxes to check on a list as “INCLUDED – NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN.” I don’t feel like the intentionally diverse decks are actually diverse because they’re trying SO HARD to be inclusive that they’re just a too-perfect rainbow of…tokens. Stereotypes. There are trans people other than middle-aged blonde trans women. There are LGBTQ+ people other than two white gay men. There are races other than the very few one might name off the top of their head.

 

What I’m doing is just going intuitively and trying my best to just allow my ideas to include people of different abilities, ages, races, genders, sexualities, sizes, and so on. When I was creating the Shaman card, I had an image in my head of an elderly, heavyset black woman knitting. I thought this was lovely. Not because it included a person of color, person of size, person of a different age, but because it just fit for the Shaman AND included some diversity!

That’s kind of where I’m going with this: incorporating diversity as PART of the deck and part of the meanings of each card, not just cramming diversity in wherever I can manage it and where it doesn’t actually make sense. I think that’s where a lot of modern “Diverse Decks” go wrong – they just cram in diversity for diversity’s sake. I’m trying to include diversity where diversity fits and suits the cards’ meanings and symbolism.

Will I be intentional about adding some diversity? Certainly – I’m going to make sure that I include at least one differently-abled person, even if it’s just a woman with a cane; I’m going to ensure that I include ethnicities other than black and white. Yes, I will have a checklist, in a way. But it’s not going to be the primary direction for my deck.

I am making an oracle deck that includes diversity. Not a Diverse Oracle Deck.

The Drifting Ashes sketch

Other than diversity, the Starcatcher Oracle will focus on sacred storytelling, universal myth symbols, Jungian archetypes, and Pagan/New-Age spirituality. All pretty standard for a modern divination deck. But I wanted to mention those factors, regardless.

I have NOT chosen a name for this deck officially yet – I’m torn between Starcatcher Oracle and Sacred Storytellers Oracle. Let me know what you like better!

And if anyone’s interested, the tools I’m using in creating this deck include:

  • 300gsm white card from Recollections (Michael’s) as the actual cards
  • Graphite mechanical pencils for sketching
  • Sakura Pigma Micron pens for inking
  • Crayola 100-colors colored pencils for coloring
  • Going to seal them with matte spray-on Mod Podge.

That’s all I’ve got for now; that’s the process (so far) of the oracle I’m making. I have a BUNCH more card-reading videos coming up, so stay tuned for that. And if you’d like, you can follow the Starcatcher Oracle’s Instagram – http://www.instagram.com/starcatcheroracle – to get notified when there’s anything new, or to see work-in-progress images!

I wish you abundant blessings, and I hope you’re having a great day.

~Julian