Weekly Update 5/14/18 – Working in a Grimoire: Stationery, Studying, and A Touch of Magick

So, some of you may know (or not know) that I am rather esoteric in my spirituality. At my core, I follow Christ, but my path has been Pagan as often as it’s been Christian, and at this point I’m mature (and comfortable) enough in my spirituality that I don’t feel the two are mutually exclusive. I’ve always said that God is far too big for any one religion to fully define or understand Him/Her/Them, so why not use multiple traditions?

One thing I love about Pagan traditions is the practice and process of keeping a Book of Shadows, also termed a grimoire – a book of magick. [NB: Magick with a K is to differentiate spiritual, occult, esoteric magick from stage magic.] A grimoire, I always thought, had to be a book of rituals, written out in arcane prose; however, I’ve learned that a grimoire, really, is just a spiritual notebook. It doesn’t have to be ANYTHING other than a book that we write in (and even then, people have long kept Floppy Disks of Shadows rather than bound books).

On the eve of the New Year in 2018, I took a 110-sheet, 220-page sketchbook and carefully tea-dyed every single page. It was exhausting and took a good 8 hours or so (not kidding) and two days of focused work. My hands were dyed completely brown-orange, but it was worth it; I now have a gorgeously aged-looking blank book. I sat down and planned out what would go on each of those pages, and prepared to work on it.

And then, for five months, I didn’t touch the thing. Not a jot of ink has hit those pages yet.

However, I am re-committing to finishing that book this year. I am going on a trip this week – won’t say where, except that it’s a gorgeous, remote locale where I can get away from the NoVa craziness – and WILL be working on at LEAST pencilling in some text and titles in this book. I intend for it to be a Magickal Manifesto, a book of my experiences and the wisdom I’ve gained in my path so far.

We’ll see, of course, if I follow through. But as I’m going to be away from technology, cell service, and wifi for quite a while, I’m hopeful that I’ll eventually work on it.

Speaking of which, the Etsy shop is closed for now and will not open again until I’m back and settled back into my life. It’s still there, you just can’t order anything while I’m on vacation. I did this because I don’t want anyone to have to wait a week for me to ship their stuff! So thank you for understanding.

I’m off to sleep now, but I hope y’all are doing very well, and I send you all the best wishes in the world.

~Julian

Weekly Update 3/6/18 – Anxiety, Distraction, and Missing Deadlines – but YES the comic is FINALLY available!

Hey guys! Julian here.

It has been an exhausting month. Couple of months. Year? I don’t know. I’m pretty much too exhausted from anxiety to really calculate it! My (clinical) anxiety has been overwhelming lately and I’ve struggled to even go to work. BUT. Many good things are happening too.

I had gotten badly distracted working on Tarot projects, which is fine except that I’d set myself a deadline and didn’t meet it. Which frustrates me. But I did finally finish it…and here it is!!

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My Life On The Sidelines: The Not-So-Magical World of Magical Girls, As Explained By Joel Rowan – Prologue: This Is Not My Story.

But you can call it the MLOTS Prologue. (I do.)

It’s a 24page stapled comic booklet and is available here at my Etsy shop. You can get it for under $5 USD because it’s on sale this month, and the shipping is very affordable! I’m really proud to have this under my belt, and I promise, the next chapter is coming soon. 🙂


 

It’s time for the next project though. My second big project this year, the biggest project, is to create my first 79-card Tarot deck. (Yes, it’s going to have a bonus card, as many indie decks do. I’m actually keeping that 79th card a secret until it’s available for purchase.)

*Please note that I’m not talking about the Starcatcher Oracle here – that is a more personal project; this is something that is going to be available for sale next year (mid 2019).

The theme of the deck has shifted a lot and is more about my experience of spirituality, and my memories of the Other Side. (It’s even currently called the Otherside Tarot!) [Note: This Tarot deck was later renamed the Julian Tarot.] It’s all about the struggles and beauty of being a spiritual being having a physical experience, as they say.

It’s going to be in more or less my usual art style, but will be colored in colored pencil, which I love using. The themes include the power of spirituality, acceptance, personal development, and shadow work; the look and feel of the Other Side; and lots and lots of pastels, angels, and high-vibe energy. A lot of it is influenced by my own recovery process from addiction, mental illness, and trauma, and I want to not only depict those processes (in a gentle way), but create a tool to be used in such processes.

It will take the better part of a year to do all this art, and it may very well take the rest of this year, but I am determined to create this deck and have it released on my 30th birthday (in mid 2019). I truly want to create something worthwhile, and whether it sells well or not, I intend to really put my energy and my soul into this deck, this tool, this creation.

With that being said, here’s a teaser…

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This is my 10 of Swords. It’s an image of one being forgiving another for harm done, and cutting the energetic cords that bind them together in that cycle of shame, guilt, anger, and resentment. Forgiveness, combined with true compassion, does not absolve the abuser of their actions, but it does free BOTH abuser and victim from the bondage and fallout of that trauma.

I know this isn’t exactly a traditional 10 of Swords, but it’s what the 10 of Swords means to me, and I think it’s a slightly more helpful image, perhaps, at least in some situations, than the traditional image of a man lying dead with swords piercing him through.

Anyway, yeah, that’s what I’m working on right now. Please subscribe in order to stay updated whenever I post about this and other projects. Thanks for all your support, and have a really excellent day!

~Julian