New Year’s Blog 2018-2019: Glancing Back, Gazing Forward

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
― Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere’s Fan

2018 was far and away the best year of my life thus far, and I’m not afraid to say that. (After all, the year is over, I can’t jinx it now.) It brought into my life hope, empowerment, courage, confidence, and a level of creativity that I had not experienced ever before. I don’t just mean that I got better at drawing, at anatomy or perspective or style; I mean I got better at art, the War of Art, the Art-Life, the Artist’s Way, whatever you want to call it – the very process of being creative grew in my life far more than it ever has before.

I made and published comics and zines, designed and inked an entire tarot deck (and have painted half the cards!), honed my skills, developed a paper planning system that works for me, and generally got better at being an artist. Morning Pages and a regular meditation practice have helped me to calm my mind on a daily basis, enough that I can concentrate much better and just generally get a lot more done. Having my mind clear is like having my paints well-organized: it doesn’t make the art happen, but it makes the process far more streamlined and eliminates some of the delays involved with disarray.

My online presence went from occasional blog posts, even-more-occasional videos, and a tiny, quiet Instagram, to…well, perhaps not massive success, but certainly enough popularity that my Etsy shop was able to grow by 900% (that is, making nearly 10x as much revenue as the previous year). It’s still not a huge amount – not nearly enough to quit my day job – but enough that I managed to invest in some supplies I needed, and enough that my shop has become a profitable side gig rather than a

I also grew spiritually, becoming more secure in my identity (nonidentity?) as a “spiritual seeker not otherwise specified.” I don’t identify as Pagan or Christian or New Age (though all those apply in their own ways) – I just identify as a spiritual seeker who loves Tarot and oracle cards, is fascinated by angels, and may very well be an old soul, but doesn’t claim to be any kind of guru.

I started offering card readings on my Etsy shop, something I’d wanted to do for years upon years, and am still offering about a dozen different spreads at reasonable rates. (If you’d like a reading with me, please click here to browse them.) I am thrilled to be able to offer these readings. I didn’t do it lightly: I’ve been considering for about a year and practicing and preparing, and have been reading for over 15 years, but didn’t list them until near the New Year…and I’m glad I waited until it was truly the right time.

I also started working in the conventional workplace this year, first as a receptionist, and then shifting into the world of 3D models and virtual reality design, with a focus on artistic environment creation and model texturing. My journey there has been wild. As someone who was on disability and did not work in a conventional workplace (even part-time) for 5 years, going from no job to dream job in under 12 months is nothing short of miraculous. I worked hard for it, yes, but I am very fortunate to be where I am today, in such a short period of time.

Of course, there have been challenges. Depression and anxiety plagued me for months at a time, and nearly drove me into the hospital in August. I managed to pull through without needing hospitalization, though, and other than that, I haven’t had many mental health “blips.” Most of my real struggles have centered around money management (difficult thing, when shifting from fully on disability to working part time) and time management. However, having a paper planning system that really works for me has been an absolute lifesaver: I got into bullet journaling this year, and while I do not do the incredibly elaborate beautiful stuff you see on Instagram, my bullet journal has been very helpful.

Before I close, I do want to take a moment to thank all of YOU, from the bottom of my heart, for being with me on this journey, for following my work, for clicking all those Like and Subscribe and Favorite buttons, and for allowing me to do what I do and share my interests with you. You have my eternal gratitude, and I wish you all an incredible, nurturing, creative 2019.

All the best,

Taylor

Weekly Blog 12/24/18: Writing Scripts, Drawing Manga, and Reading Tarot Cards

Hello everyone!

I’m very excited to announce that I am working on not one, but two manga comics right now – one in the drawing phase and one still in the scripting phase.

The one that I’m currently drawing is Chapter One of My Life On The Sidelines. “But that already came out!” you might say. Well, that’s sort of true. I wrote, illustrated, printed, and published MLOTS’s Prologue, but chapter 1 is what I’m drawing right now. I’ve had the script done for a while, but it’s only now being actually drawn and inked. I’ll be bringing this chapter to you sometime in January.

The one that I’m scripting, I’m almost more excited about. It’s a “dark hero” story, a vigilante hero who defends a town and finally captures his arch-enemy…only to find that disposing of the evildoer is not always as simple as one thinks. It’s a story of redemption and forgiveness, and while it’s not going to be an easy one, I really think it will be an important story to write and tell, both for me to create, and for others to read and experience.

Finally, I wanted to let you all know – and I’m a bit nervous to share this – that I’m now offering Tarot/oracle/angel card readings on my Etsy shop! Yes, you can finally have a reading from me. The readings will be pre-recorded videos that I’ll film of me doing your reading. I’m offering one card and four card readings right now, and on top of that, they’re on sale! So check out the listings for the one card and four card readings. I think people will really like them. 🙂

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Four decks I’m really enjoying: Oracle of the Angels (Blue Angel), Work Your Light Oracle (Hay House), Moonchild Tarot (Starseed Designs), and the Isis Oracle (Blue Angel).

That’s about all. Things have been a lot less crazy lately, or maybe I’m just managing my time better. Regardless, I’m relieved to say that I don’t feel very stressed this week. 🙂

I want to send a special shoutout to the people who shopped at my Etsy shop this week. It really, really helps to have that extra income, however small it may be some months. I’m offering free shipping through the end of December, so if you’d like to order something, now would be a good time. 🙂

Until next week,

Taylor

Image: The Three of Cups card from the Moonchild Tarot. Available at https://themoonchildtarot.com

Monthly Update September 2018 | Tarot Reading, Angelic Divination, Day Job Advancement, and Enjoying Writing Again

Hey everyone, it’s Julian! Have I got updates for you…not much tangible, not much I can post, but lots of news.

First off, since everyone’s going to ask, here’s the latest Tarot cards I’ve painted:

Aside from that project, which yes, is ongoing, I do have several things going on…

Tarot Reading: I’m going to be doing professional tarot reading! Yes, that’s right, I will be offering tarot readings (as pre-recorded video sessions) on my Etsy shop, starting next month (or possibly a little later this month). Watch this space, as there will be a half off coupon posted on this blog when I do start doing them.

I’ve wanted to be a Tarot reader since I knew what a Tarot reader was, and since then, I’ve branched off into oracle cards, angel cards, and even channeling. I’m a certified card reader and I feel that after 16 years of study, it’s time to share my gifts with the world. So yes, if you’re interested in a Tarot reading, follow this blog to get notified when I do post that announcement and coupon.

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Angelic Divination: This is a side project I’ve been working on lately, and while it has its own YouTube channel already, I’m not sure yet whether it will be part of this site or have its own. I feel really moved to give it its own platform, but this project doesn’t really have a budget yet, so I’m not sure a site for it is in the cards. I suspect that once I’ve established it as a brand on its own, then I can invest in a site.

But what is Angelic Divination? It’s an approach to Tarot, oracle, and angel cards that uses the energy of the Archangels, and while it started out as just my own approach to such, it’s grown into so much more. I intend to make at least a few courses on this divinatory approach, and I’ll be posting them over on that channel.

Day Job Advancement: I have been selected for an art fellowship, so I guess you could say I’m going pro as an artist. It’s a little weird in that it doesn’t feel weird or scary at all, just…right. Which probably means I’ve been ready for a while and just haven’t had an opportunity/the courage to go for it! I’m very grateful for the opportunity, though, and don’t worry, this won’t change anything here…I’ll still be my same old weird comic-drawing, blogging, cardslinging self. Wild horses couldn’t drag that out of me.

But it’s very exciting to be essentially doing a mix of a day job and a long-term commission. I’ll be working at home, designing elements for 3D virtual environments, painting, as a part time job. I’ll…actually probably make more from this job than I do from my current day job. Which is appropriate, but still feels wild.

Enjoying Writing Again: I honestly didn’t grow up as an artist – I spent the first 15 or so years of my life intending to be a writer. Art was a hobby; writing was my vocation. Over the years, I got more and more interested in art, and sort of burned myself out with writing by authoring several novels while struggling with bipolar disorder.

I associated writing with my illness for a long, long time. I had concluded that since I wrote a lot when I was ill, writing must be encouraging my hypomania – an error of confusing correlation with causation – and so I stopped almost altogether. There is a gap of a few years when aside from journaling, I just didn’t write much. I was kind of afraid to, and it felt exhausting to even think about the amount of work it took to write a novel.

But this month I had to write a pitch for that day job thing, and when I let friends and family read just the handout for the pitch, I got some really positive feedback. People were surprised by how well-written and clear and elegant it was. I’m doing well right now, no hypomania, so clearly the writing was good but was also not the product of illness. Who knew I could write while in my right mind, too?

So I’m thinking I’ll just get my toes wet at first, and write some more frequent blog posts for this site. I have 2 or 3 more blogs written that are just waiting to be queued/scheduled, and I’m excited to share them with you. I’m writing more about Starseed/Lightworker stuff, as well as Tarot and art.

Also, it’s been a year that this site has been up, and I could not be more proud and pleased with the interactions I’ve had and just the pride I feel from having maintained a website all year. Feels good to have accomplished something like that.

Year 2’s goal: Get to 200 followers!

All the best,

~Julian

Weekly Update 2/20/18 | Completing My Life On The Sidelines Prologue, Designing an Oracle Deck, and Balancing Projects

[Image: The Wishing Well card, #1, from my upcoming Starcatcher Oracle deck.]

Hey y’all!

My gosh, I have been BUSY. Life…work…conventions…and art and cards…*zones out more*

So. First off: Yes, I missed had to reschedule my deadline for My Life On The Sidelines. It’s unfortunate, but I had to – I just could not work last week, and that was the last week I had to work. Fortunately, I’m very nearly done, so that should be done by the next time I update. This particular comic has gone much more smoothly than my previous projects, and I think I’ve worked in a balanced way – or, at least, a more balanced way than I have done past projects.

I’ve already jumped into the next project, though, which is typical of me. I’m now working on…the Starcatcher Oracle! It’s a deck of oracle cards (similar to to tarot but without the typical Tarot system) and it is inspired by my own spiritual/mental landscape and language of symbols.

The Bouquet sketch

I believe that all tarot and oracle decks are languages of symbols, and different decks/systems just have different vocabulary in that same language. So this is a deck of MY symbolic vocabulary, the set of symbols that MY subconscious speaks and thinks in.

This particular copy – these physical cards – are MY copy of the Starcatcher Oracle, and depending, it may be the only version that ever exists. However, I’m hopeful that this will lead to me making actual illustrations and having them printed as a deck.

Why am I doing this? For the same reason that English students are encouraged to write and speak in English, and Spanish students are encouraged to write and speak in Spanish, as much as possible. In the same vein, I’m “speaking” in the language of symbols, specifically the ones that work for me, by making this deck.

The art isn’t actually the most important part, for me, and that’s been hard to accept. I always asked “why do deck ‘Authors’ get so much credit? Why is there not more credit for the people who actually made the cards? Why is Doreen’s name so big on this box??!” (I still wonder SOME of that.) But I never realized how much planning, thought, and research goes into just deciding on those symbolic images and the titles and the keywords and guidebook. It’s not as easy as one might guess; it’s not JUST drawing 78 (or 80, or 88) images. It’s designing everything from the color language to the density of symbols in each card. THAT is often what “deck creators” who don’t do the art, actually do. And it is valid, challenging work.

So yeah. I have a new appreciation for deck/guidebook authors. I do still think that the artists’ names should be much more prominent on packaging and advertisements for decks, but we can’t have everything right away.

I’ve illustrated one of the cards fully and have sketched several more. The one I’ve completed is the Wishing Well

The Shaman sketch

And my favorites that I’ve sketched are The Bouquet, The Drifting Ashes, and The Shaman. The Shaman illustrates beautifully how I’m going about my goal of creating a “naturally diverse” deck. What I mean by naturally diverse is, as opposed to “intentionally diverse.” In my humble opinion, intentionally diverse decks (and media) use tokens and try to check off every minority they can manage to include, as if we are but boxes to check on a list as “INCLUDED – NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN.” I don’t feel like the intentionally diverse decks are actually diverse because they’re trying SO HARD to be inclusive that they’re just a too-perfect rainbow of…tokens. Stereotypes. There are trans people other than middle-aged blonde trans women. There are LGBTQ+ people other than two white gay men. There are races other than the very few one might name off the top of their head.

 

What I’m doing is just going intuitively and trying my best to just allow my ideas to include people of different abilities, ages, races, genders, sexualities, sizes, and so on. When I was creating the Shaman card, I had an image in my head of an elderly, heavyset black woman knitting. I thought this was lovely. Not because it included a person of color, person of size, person of a different age, but because it just fit for the Shaman AND included some diversity!

That’s kind of where I’m going with this: incorporating diversity as PART of the deck and part of the meanings of each card, not just cramming diversity in wherever I can manage it and where it doesn’t actually make sense. I think that’s where a lot of modern “Diverse Decks” go wrong – they just cram in diversity for diversity’s sake. I’m trying to include diversity where diversity fits and suits the cards’ meanings and symbolism.

Will I be intentional about adding some diversity? Certainly – I’m going to make sure that I include at least one differently-abled person, even if it’s just a woman with a cane; I’m going to ensure that I include ethnicities other than black and white. Yes, I will have a checklist, in a way. But it’s not going to be the primary direction for my deck.

I am making an oracle deck that includes diversity. Not a Diverse Oracle Deck.

The Drifting Ashes sketch

Other than diversity, the Starcatcher Oracle will focus on sacred storytelling, universal myth symbols, Jungian archetypes, and Pagan/New-Age spirituality. All pretty standard for a modern divination deck. But I wanted to mention those factors, regardless.

I have NOT chosen a name for this deck officially yet – I’m torn between Starcatcher Oracle and Sacred Storytellers Oracle. Let me know what you like better!

And if anyone’s interested, the tools I’m using in creating this deck include:

  • 300gsm white card from Recollections (Michael’s) as the actual cards
  • Graphite mechanical pencils for sketching
  • Sakura Pigma Micron pens for inking
  • Crayola 100-colors colored pencils for coloring
  • Going to seal them with matte spray-on Mod Podge.

That’s all I’ve got for now; that’s the process (so far) of the oracle I’m making. I have a BUNCH more card-reading videos coming up, so stay tuned for that. And if you’d like, you can follow the Starcatcher Oracle’s Instagram – http://www.instagram.com/starcatcheroracle – to get notified when there’s anything new, or to see work-in-progress images!

I wish you abundant blessings, and I hope you’re having a great day.

~Julian