Weekly Blog 2/18/19: Beauty for Ashes: Receiving Negative Feedback, Processing Failure, and Starting A Period Of Study

Hey guys! It’s Taylor. I’m here with a bit of a difficult blog, on a bit of a difficult topic: some difficult feedback I’ve gotten, and the process I’ve gone through in integrating that information and figuring out “if I suck at the one thing I really want to do, where do I go from here?”

So, basically, a few days back I showed my latest creation, the comic Beauty for Ashes, issue 1, to a friend. He complimented the art and printing, but said finally: “I can’t follow the story. Like, at all.” It was a punch to the gut. I hadn’t realized that with all the corners I cut – reading lots of comics (but not drawing much), only practicing drawing females (to the detriment of learning to draw males), spending years practicing making comics but never really learning the theory behind it – I realized, after this difficult conversation, that my slacking and freeform study had not resulted in me being able to draw comics. It had resulted in being essentially a writer who can’t plot a novel, or a screenplay author who can’t format. I had the passion and the practice and NONE of the study.

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For a few days I languished in despair (intentionally using dramatic language there – I was being dramatic). My whole world felt jumbled. I had spent the past 15 years or so actively trying to become a comic artist, and, to my mind, had failed. Then a thought came to me – one of my favorite quotes:

“If you need a tree, the best time to plant one was 20 years ago. The second best time is today.”

Meaning that yes, we may waste time, and yes, it may be too late for some things in some senses – but that doesn’t mean you give up. You still plant that tree, and you water it and make the best of what you can.

So I got thinking: What did I do with other art forms that I have gotten good at (novel-writing, painting, etc)? “Practice,” “study,” and “start small” came to mind immediately. With novels, I studied the craft (taking classes and reading how-to books), I practiced (I’ve written 8 or 10 fiction books depending on whether you count picture books), and I started small (the picture books were my first foray into fiction). With watercolor, it’s been a similar path.

For some reason, I guess I’d thought that my years of striving with comics would result automatically in learning. Turns out practice makes progress, but it works a heck of a lot better if it’s combined with academic study (or at least learning from experts) and starting super-micro.

Thus I’ve been coming up with a sort of course of study for myself, going so far as to also learn about “how to teach yourself stuff in general,” involving books and courses on how to make comics. It includes some of Eisner’s instructional works on sequential art, Scott McCloud’s Understanding Comics and Making Comics, Hirohiko Araki’s Manga in Theory and Practice, and other resources.

The important thing is…I’m going to study. I’m going to do the homework. I’m sad that it’s taken me this long to be ready to do it, but it takes what it takes. For me it took four comics that didn’t make sense – and some incredibly helpful but very painful feedback – to figure out that I need to do the homework, have beta readers, and study – the same as everyone else.

In the next year or so, I don’t plan to release much in terms of comics, but I’ll definitely still be making art, the Tarot deck, and my blog and YouTube content. It will be a year of practice and study, and that’s okay. I’m excited to tackle this, and I’m excited to see where I end up in 2020.

If you’d like to support this whole operation, please head over to my Etsy shop. You can purchase art, prints, even stationery and Tarot accessories, all handmade by me. And if you’re enjoying my site, please hit the follow button on the right to get notified whenever I post a new blog (about once a week).

Wishing you all the best,

Taylor

Weekly Blog 12/24/18: Writing Scripts, Drawing Manga, and Reading Tarot Cards

Hello everyone!

I’m very excited to announce that I am working on not one, but two manga comics right now – one in the drawing phase and one still in the scripting phase.

The one that I’m currently drawing is Chapter One of My Life On The Sidelines. “But that already came out!” you might say. Well, that’s sort of true. I wrote, illustrated, printed, and published MLOTS’s Prologue, but chapter 1 is what I’m drawing right now. I’ve had the script done for a while, but it’s only now being actually drawn and inked. I’ll be bringing this chapter to you sometime in January.

The one that I’m scripting, I’m almost more excited about. It’s a “dark hero” story, a vigilante hero who defends a town and finally captures his arch-enemy…only to find that disposing of the evildoer is not always as simple as one thinks. It’s a story of redemption and forgiveness, and while it’s not going to be an easy one, I really think it will be an important story to write and tell, both for me to create, and for others to read and experience.

Finally, I wanted to let you all know – and I’m a bit nervous to share this – that I’m now offering Tarot/oracle/angel card readings on my Etsy shop! Yes, you can finally have a reading from me. The readings will be pre-recorded videos that I’ll film of me doing your reading. I’m offering one card and four card readings right now, and on top of that, they’re on sale! So check out the listings for the one card and four card readings. I think people will really like them. 🙂

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Four decks I’m really enjoying: Oracle of the Angels (Blue Angel), Work Your Light Oracle (Hay House), Moonchild Tarot (Starseed Designs), and the Isis Oracle (Blue Angel).

That’s about all. Things have been a lot less crazy lately, or maybe I’m just managing my time better. Regardless, I’m relieved to say that I don’t feel very stressed this week. 🙂

I want to send a special shoutout to the people who shopped at my Etsy shop this week. It really, really helps to have that extra income, however small it may be some months. I’m offering free shipping through the end of December, so if you’d like to order something, now would be a good time. 🙂

Until next week,

Taylor

Image: The Three of Cups card from the Moonchild Tarot. Available at https://themoonchildtarot.com

Weekly Blog 12/17/18 | Comic Scripting, Multitasking Projects, and Day Job Breakthroughs (That I Can’t Talk About)

Hello everyone!

I’m very excited to be coming back to you with good news from my corner of the world: I’m doing much better mentally, after that crazy week of creating tons of art and projects, and am evening out my mood. My paper planning system is helping hugely in this; I’m able to not only track my mood and be aware of where my brain is, but it helps me also to manage my daily habits and do enough self-care but also enough work that I can sleep at night. So, things are pretty good.

I’ve been scripting comics – actual drawing quite often triggers my hypomania (bipolar symptom), but scripting is not a problem. I’m working on My Life On The Sidelines, the next installment being chapter 1, but also Beauty For Ashes, a more grown-up manga about a sort of antihero vigilante who protects women from assault, but has a lot of secrets of his own. The script for Chapter 1 is complete and I’m hoping to release that chapter as a little home-printed comic in spring 2019.

I’m managing a lot of projects right now, and I have to say it’s a bit difficult to work on them all and make progress! My day job takes precedence of course, but then it seems that the Millennial Mystic Tarot, the Hekate Oracle, my poetry, My Life On The Sidelines, and Beauty For Ashes are all tied for second place. It’s really hard to prioritize when you have one clear priority but really haven’t prioritized beyond that. It is fine to have a bottom line – at the end of the day, I HAVE to have done my day job work – but it’s also important to prioritize the littler things.

I don’t know exactly how I’m going to manage that. But I will. 🙂

Finally, I have made a major breakthrough at work…and can tell you absolutely nothing about it. Like, really, my hands are tied here. I would love to describe the process to you, especially the “EUREKA!” moment I had last Tuesday night – but I can’t. It is all proprietary, and in essence, my company owns the technological advancement I made. That’s okay, though. I intend to stay with them a while yet.

I’m off to work now. Wishing you all the best, and hoping you have a great day.

-Taylor

Image for this week’s blog: Joey Belle, a male but somewhat feminine character with bright blue eyes and messy, badly trimmed blonde hair. The image is a portrait, shoulders up, of Joey smirking confidently.

Weekly Update 2/6/18 | The New Copier Is Here!! | Starting Out Self Publishing | Investing in Technology

[Image: Photo of CANON ImageClass MF632Cdw consumer-range office printer/copier. source: canon.com]

Oh gosh, I have so much to talk about. I rambled about the new copier in a video here, but I’ll give you the run down in text form too:

Basically, I am now the owner of a Canon imageCLASS MF632Cdw – a mid-range color laser printer/scanner/all-in-one. It is a beautiful little machine and I’m really happy with it so far! I got mine from a big chain electronics store (won’t say which) and

I have already had to replace the toner cartridge, but that’s to be expected. They give you a half-full toner cartridge to start with, and when I got it, I was kinda hyper and printed a crapton of test editions to figure out my offset layout software…So I wound up buying a toner the next day. I’m sure the store thought I was absolutely out of my mind but I needed that darn toner!

But the proof is in the pudding: I’ve been able to print my first zine-size (6×8, roughly) editions of You Are In Love and The Cheyenne Line, my first two comics. They are so beautiful, dude, I’m just freaking out that I was able to make them at home, for so little money. 🙂 I’m also developing a couple of other zine-format (folded, stapled) publications, including an Inktober zine (containing my Inktober illustrations from 2017).

So what do you DO with a bunch of zines? And what about those slightly-off-kilter, misprinted misfits? Do they get thrown out or wasted? Nope. I’ll be using those as promotional items – I’ve found that people who would NEVER buy a romance comic based on a song by The Ataris, would totally take a free copy. People love free shit, is what it comes down to.

And as for the nice ones, I’ll have them on sale, but most of the ones I’ve already printed will be given or traded to artists when I go to Katsucon in a couple weeks. I’ve never been to a convention, and while I’m not tabling this year, I’m definitely going to be heading into Artists’ Alley, and I want to have something a little better than a plain old business card to hand out.

Choosing to invest in this printer – and choosing to commit to the continuous investment in toner cartridges – was a big decision. I had to talk with my partner about it and think about whether it was the right time to buy such a thing. Financially, it’s perfectly plausible; but whether this was the right place to put the money was another matter. I’m not exactly a big name, and I’ve sold a grand total of one of my comics. One COPY. EVER. (As of this writing, anyway.) So, sadly, I’m not sure I can justify it based on “I’ll definitely be printing enough comics to make back the money in six months!”

However, my partner and I agree that based on the quality of my work, and the consistency with which I produce content, indicate that yes, it’s time to own a nice copier. It’s worth it to invest in, because even if it’s not within six months, this copier WILL pay for itself.

I intend, however, to prove myself wrong and “pay it off” (make back the same amount we spent) within 6 months. I’d like to at least use it to pay for the toner!

Anyway, you can click here if you’d like to purchase one of my comics. I had fun putting them together, and I think they came out great, so head over to the shop to explore what I have for sale.

Also, I have FINALLY got my mojo back on working on my spiritual stuff! So expect more grimoire/Book of Shadows posts soon. I’ll be doing flip-through videos once I’ve got some done, and until then, there will be at least text updates.

Sorry this update is going up late this week, I had kind of a crazy weekend. But all is well now. 🙂

~Julian

Weekly Update 1/29/18 | Zine Influences, Comic Inking, and Self-Publishing Rebellion!

[Pictured: An assortment of the zines and self-published publications I’ve collected over the years.]

Hey y’all! It’s Julian. I’m in the midst of a comic-inking marathon, but I’m taking a few minutes to write up an update. 🙂

I’ve been really inspired by zines, zine culture, zine discussion, and zine documentaries this week – and self-publishing in general is becoming even more appealing to me than before. I’m really excited and, in fact, proud to be self-publishing. I honestly think that self-publishing is the future of art, rather than a dying concept. I see more and more young artists self-publishing zines, books, and comics, and more and more big companies going down…in a way, it makes me happy. We are still here.

I’m currently working hard on My Life On The Sidelines, my current comic project. I’m on the Prologue right now and am about 2/3 done with those 24-ish pages. I’m looking into formatting and printing it, and it’s going to be more zine-sized than my previous (8.5×11″) comics. Every day I’m learning more about what my technology can do and how I can print them without going to a bigger printing service. It’s awesome!

(If you’d like to read Sidelines now, please click here.)

The whole idea of self-publishing appeals to me partly because it’s an act of rebellion. Not just if you make an explicit, politically drive riot grrl zine – I mean that self-publishing itself is an act of rebellion.

How so?

Well, first of all, it rejects the very idea of needing permission: permission to speak, permission to share your ideas, permission to promote your art. It rejects the idea of needing validation; anyone can self-publish, so it doesn’t matter whether your art is “good enough” or “high quality.” And perhaps best of all, self-publishing is no respecter of persons. Rich, poor, POC, white, male, female, nonbinary – anyone can make a zine, and for the most part, no one can stop you.

Of course, I realize I’m speaking from a place of privilege in that I’m in a country and area where if I say (or self-publish) something outlandish, I’m not likely to be killed for it. But really, in most places, anyone can self-publish. You can even be anonymous or use a pseudonym if you’re really uncomfortable about it. I do.

But really, I believe that self-publishing is an act of rebellion, a show of courage, and a practice of self-worth and love. Self-publishing your work shows that you are unafraid and unabashed and unashamed.  And so I’ll keep running off photocopies.

Until the next time we speak, I hope you’re having an excellent day, and I’ll talk to you again very very soon!

~Julian

Weekly Update 1/15/18 | “Sidelines” Comic Creation Process – Setbacks, Successes, and Surprises!

So I’m in the beginning of the Starting-To-Panic Point: the moment at which the number of days before my deadline approaches the number of pages I need to do BY that deadline. At a good steady pace, I can ink maybe a page a day. I am very slow and very bad at focusing, and I get burned out easily, so I prefer to keep it down to one page a day. That doesn’t often last to the end of the deadline period, but hey. One can try.

Today is January 15; my deadline for my comic is February 15. Well, actually, the release date is February 15. I have to have all the pages inked by the 7th at the VERY latest.

To make matters more difficult, I have a convention coming up just days after that deadline, AND – I’m inking these pages with a dip pen! Not my usual Microns, but a dip pen! What the…?! What was I thinking?!

Me: But G-pen nibs make such beautiful lines! It’s everything I’ve ever looked for in line art!
Also me: Never mind how it looks, it’s not POSSIBLE to do a whole 20 page intro chapter in 20 days if you’re doing it with a dip pen. 
Me: But dip pens are PERFECT!
Also me: And they take forever.
Me: BUT THEY’RE PERFECT!
Also me: You’ll never get it done in time if you do it with dip pens.
Me: And if you make me use microns, it’ll look lifeless and lame. I need to use dip pens for this! MY COMIC IS WORTH IT!
Also me: *massive sigh*

This is just a taste of what goes on in my head on a day-to-day basis.

So yeah, the dip pen situation is slowing things down, but I desperately want to use dip pens for this project. So unless/until it becomes abundantly clear that that’s impossible, I’m still going to try.

I HAD had the first several pages sketched very neatly and was ready to start inking them, but then realized – much to my dismay – that I had sketched them on paper that isn’t good for pen and ink. I’m used to my Microns, which will write on pretty much any paper without much trouble. Dip pens and ink are a bit more finicky.

So I traced and redrew all those pages onto different paper, paper that actually takes pen and ink in a great way. I probably should use Bristol board, but I’m broke, on a budget, and already have drawing paper on hand, so yeah, higher-grade drawing paper it is.

I’ve also reorganized some of my art materials into more portable cases. If anyone’s interested, I’d be happy to do a “what’s in my pencil case?” video, since those seem to be pretty popular amongst the YouTube journaling/art people. 🙂

Also! I’m having a huge 10%-off-EVERYTHING sale on my Etsy shop. So head on over! There’s original art, trading cards, journals, and handmade goods galore!

Thanks again to everyone who’s been supporting me through this journey so far. I really am looking forward to this year. It’s shaping up to be a good one. 😉

~Julian

Weekly Update 12/11/17 | Shipping Wars, Prismacolor Pencils, and BAKUMAN

Hey y’all! It’s Julian.

It has begun. The shipping wars of December 2017 have begun.

What I mean, of course, is the process of producing, packaging, and shipping all the holiday gifts I’m sending out this year. And if you’ve ever done this, you know that “war” is only a moderate exaggeration.

I’ve chosen FedEx as my partner in battle this time around. Currently, an amazing piece is in their hands, headed to Chicago. I’ve had no complaints with FedEx so far, so they’ll be my partner going forward.

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I’m busily working on other pieces, and yes, I’m working with Prismacolors now!! SO in love with these things. I got the 150 set, only because they were on sale for like $47 on Black Friday. But they are now mine, safely in my hands, and I intend to use them to the best of my ability.

I’ve also begun to really use the local library system again…mostly for reading manga, yes, but also for picking up books on writing, drawing, and publishing comics. Here are a few I’m reading right now:

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BAKUMAN (Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata) – Created by the author and artist of Death Note, BAKUMAN tells the story of two high-schoolers who aspire to become manga artists. Through a classic manga-style Odd Turn of Events, our hero, Moritaka Mashiro, makes a pact to become a published manga artist, WITH his work turned into an anime, before he’s 18. I’m only 2 volumes into this series, and it’s at least 20 long, but I’m really enjoying it so far.

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Making Comics (Scott McCloud) – This is pretty much my core text as a comic artist. I don’t own a copy but I borrow one from the library from time to time. It’s the basics of creating comics – whether comic books, manga, or graphic novels – all told in graphic novel form. Very fun, very educational, very important work.

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The Complete Guide to Self-Publishing Comics (Comfort Love and Adam Withers) – I haven’t read this one at all yet but it looks awesome. It’s by a husband-and-wife team who started self-publishing comics in 2008, and were doing it full time in 2009. Which is incredible. So I wanted to read this and pick the brains of the experts!

Well, that’s all I’ve got this week. I have a couple of videos coming your way, though, so stay tuned for that!

~Julian