Monthly Update December 2018 | Many, Many, Many Projects!

Hello everyone, and welcome to the December update blog!

I’ve been hard at work both at my day job (3D model design and texture painting), and my Tarot deck at home. The amount of work is heavy, but not unbearable, and I’m enjoying it, so I guess it’s a good deal. 🙂 I enjoy both jobs very much.

I’m itching to draw comics again, though, and I’ve got an idea in mind. Unlike my previous works, it’s not a gift for anyone – it’s a comic I’ve wanted to draw for some time, a story that aches to burst out into the world. It’s got the working title Paisley and Patch, and it’s the story of a rock star and a roadie. In one form or another, I’ve been writing this story since I was 15 or so, and I’m very hopeful about finally drawing it.

It’s a bit of a self-indulgence, but those often are the best stories. 😉 I’ll be reading lots of romance and drama manga to get inspired, and yeah, I’m just very excited about this very dear-to-my-heart story coming to light and to life.

But first things first, and that means that before I can seriously work on manga, I need to finish up my Tarot deck. There are about 48 images left to paint, and only 2 of them need to be inked (the rest are already ready to paint), so it’s just a lot of painting. I’m still on schedule to start test printing in March and have the proposed Kickstarter in June. I’m very excited about this whole thing. It’s going to be awesome. 🙂

I’ve been managing weekly videos over on my YouTube channel, which is pretty good by my standards. I was always a very sporadic YouTuber, but I’ve learned to build up a stack of videos so that I don’t actually have to do it every week, but rather have a bit of a buffer in case I get busy or things come up. Basically I work ahead of time and schedule videos, so that if I can’t manage to record anything, I can at least have those scheduled videos automatically posting for a few weeks while I get myself back together. 🙂 I’m currently about a month ahead of schedule – that is, most of December’s videos are already recorded, edited, and uploaded. It’s just a matter of YouTube posting them for me each week. Pretty handy!

Also, I’ve re-opened my Etsy shop, and I really appreciate the people who are shopping there. I don’t know how you’re finding my shop, considering that Etsy’s search algorithm has become really difficult to deal with, but you have, and I love you for it! I am so happy to be selling again, not even so much from a financial perspective (though it does help), but from the perspective of wanting to be of service and share my craft (notebooks, sewing, and art).

This is all a lot, but it’s helpful to be paper planning. I’m enjoying and having a lot of good results with my bullet journal, and have also been doing “daily diary” journaling to process thoughts and experiences. All in all, paper planning is helping me to keep it all together.

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I hope this blog finds you well, and that everything is going well for you. And until next time, as always…I hope you are having a really excellent day, and I’ll talk to you again very very soon!

-Taylor

Weekly Blog 11/26/18 | Changing Mindset, Altering Self-Image, and Paradigm Shifts

Hey all!

We all reach points in life where we, naturally and appropriately, question how we view ourselves in relation to the wideer world. We ask, am I primarily a parent or a worker? An employee, or an employer? Mostly working at building a career, or mostly holding down a day job to fund a passion project? Winner or loser? Someone or just one amongst many?

Personally I don’t believe that any of these are inherently good or bad, right or wrong. Nor do I believe that any one quality, status, or identity need fit one person for their whole life.

When I was ten, I would tell everyone that I was going to be a writer when I grew up – a novelist, specifically – and to please tell me off if I ever even CONSIDERED being anything else.

At fifteen, I insisted I was going to be a graphic novelist.

At eighteen, a social worker or art therapist.

At twenty-three, I probably would have shrugged and said “I won’t grow up, I’ll probably be dead sooner than that.”

And now, at twenty-eight?

Technically, I’m a 3D modeler, VR engineer, artist, and writer. I do both less and more than I had planned as a younger human.

I have never published a novel, but I’ve written a few, and I am currently writing a novella that I plan to self-publish. I have never finished a graphic novel, but I’ve done a few one-off comic books. I have not gotten a degree, so I’m not a social worker or art therapist, but I’ve had the opportunity to run groups and do workshops and presentations about my recovery from mental illness. Unexpectedly, I’ve gotten some training in 3D/VR software, and I do 3D model design and VR engineering. I also run a small YouTube channel, something I’d said was definitely not for me.

I am not dead, and am hoping not to be anytime soon.

So basically, I guess my point is that you never know where life is going to take you. You’re going to gain interest in, stumble upon, and learn about things that you hadn’t even been aware of ten years ago – so how could you know where you’ll be in ten years?

And that is totally okay. Dream like you’ll live forever, live like you’ll die tomorrow. Do what you love, even if that’s never the same thing twice. Be yourself, whoever that happens to be today.

Change is not inherently good or bad. Our reactions to change determine how we experience that change. I used to hate the idea of “me” changing. I wanted to have a single identity, never changing, something I could lean on. I wanted to just be so passionate about something that I could point to that one thing and say “That’s what I do, that’s who I am. I eat, sleep, and breathe that.”

But to be honest, in practice, I don’t actually think that’s healthy. If you have something that consumes you to the detriment of you being you, it…well, that doesn’t work for me.

Much as I may resent it, I’m just a human. A complex, flawed, multifaceted human with a lot of interests, a lot of hobbies, and a lot of skill sets. Sometimes I’m happy about working in 3D/VR, other times it feels like “why am I even trying to do this?!” Sometimes I feel that ache of need to just be a writer or just be a comic artist, but really, if I just did one thing, I’d miss the others.

Am I easily distracted? Do I have focus issues? Am I scattered? Am I just really, really a Gemini when it comes to work?

At this point I don’t really question it. If it’s a noveling day, I work on a novel. If I feel moved to work on art, I pull out the paint and brushes. If my heart is crying out for 3D modeling, I boot up Blender.

It’s okay to have a lot of interests. It’s really okay. Most people are more complex than we realize, or indeed give them credit for. Very few people can be defined by one vocation, especially if you include all the years and seasons of their lives.

It’s romantic to think that we can just love and be one thing forever, but not realistic. And that’s okay. Be who you are today, do what you love today. Sleep, dream, wake up, and take tomorrow as it comes.

~Taylor

Monthly Update September 2018 | Tarot Reading, Angelic Divination, Day Job Advancement, and Enjoying Writing Again

Hey everyone, it’s Julian! Have I got updates for you…not much tangible, not much I can post, but lots of news.

First off, since everyone’s going to ask, here’s the latest Tarot cards I’ve painted:

Aside from that project, which yes, is ongoing, I do have several things going on…

Tarot Reading: I’m going to be doing professional tarot reading! Yes, that’s right, I will be offering tarot readings (as pre-recorded video sessions) on my Etsy shop, starting next month (or possibly a little later this month). Watch this space, as there will be a half off coupon posted on this blog when I do start doing them.

I’ve wanted to be a Tarot reader since I knew what a Tarot reader was, and since then, I’ve branched off into oracle cards, angel cards, and even channeling. I’m a certified card reader and I feel that after 16 years of study, it’s time to share my gifts with the world. So yes, if you’re interested in a Tarot reading, follow this blog to get notified when I do post that announcement and coupon.

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Angelic Divination: This is a side project I’ve been working on lately, and while it has its own YouTube channel already, I’m not sure yet whether it will be part of this site or have its own. I feel really moved to give it its own platform, but this project doesn’t really have a budget yet, so I’m not sure a site for it is in the cards. I suspect that once I’ve established it as a brand on its own, then I can invest in a site.

But what is Angelic Divination? It’s an approach to Tarot, oracle, and angel cards that uses the energy of the Archangels, and while it started out as just my own approach to such, it’s grown into so much more. I intend to make at least a few courses on this divinatory approach, and I’ll be posting them over on that channel.

Day Job Advancement: I have been selected for an art fellowship, so I guess you could say I’m going pro as an artist. It’s a little weird in that it doesn’t feel weird or scary at all, just…right. Which probably means I’ve been ready for a while and just haven’t had an opportunity/the courage to go for it! I’m very grateful for the opportunity, though, and don’t worry, this won’t change anything here…I’ll still be my same old weird comic-drawing, blogging, cardslinging self. Wild horses couldn’t drag that out of me.

But it’s very exciting to be essentially doing a mix of a day job and a long-term commission. I’ll be working at home, designing elements for 3D virtual environments, painting, as a part time job. I’ll…actually probably make more from this job than I do from my current day job. Which is appropriate, but still feels wild.

Enjoying Writing Again: I honestly didn’t grow up as an artist – I spent the first 15 or so years of my life intending to be a writer. Art was a hobby; writing was my vocation. Over the years, I got more and more interested in art, and sort of burned myself out with writing by authoring several novels while struggling with bipolar disorder.

I associated writing with my illness for a long, long time. I had concluded that since I wrote a lot when I was ill, writing must be encouraging my hypomania – an error of confusing correlation with causation – and so I stopped almost altogether. There is a gap of a few years when aside from journaling, I just didn’t write much. I was kind of afraid to, and it felt exhausting to even think about the amount of work it took to write a novel.

But this month I had to write a pitch for that day job thing, and when I let friends and family read just the handout for the pitch, I got some really positive feedback. People were surprised by how well-written and clear and elegant it was. I’m doing well right now, no hypomania, so clearly the writing was good but was also not the product of illness. Who knew I could write while in my right mind, too?

So I’m thinking I’ll just get my toes wet at first, and write some more frequent blog posts for this site. I have 2 or 3 more blogs written that are just waiting to be queued/scheduled, and I’m excited to share them with you. I’m writing more about Starseed/Lightworker stuff, as well as Tarot and art.

Also, it’s been a year that this site has been up, and I could not be more proud and pleased with the interactions I’ve had and just the pride I feel from having maintained a website all year. Feels good to have accomplished something like that.

Year 2’s goal: Get to 200 followers!

All the best,

~Julian

Life Hits The Fan | Finances, Insurance, Day Jobs, and The Future Of My Art :(

Hey guys. It’s Julian.

Things ain’t good.

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“Cube.” 9×12″, ink and watercolor.

I’m likely losing my insurance and most of my income in September, and now it’s looking like my day job is in danger, too. My disability kept me out of work for 5 years; I’ve only been working again for 5 months.

I’m frustrated, but I’m beginning to realize that I may not be able to keep up this “conventional work” thing. It’s terrifying, though, because my disability benefits are disappearing in two months, and without them, I’d have NO income – which is not a good situation, for a single young person who can barely afford rent and bills as it is.

The answer that seems obvious is for me to go full time with my art – the one thing that’s really working in my life, the one thing I’m good at – but I just don’t have that kind of popularity/platform yet. I would LOVE to live off of commissions and Patreon, but it’s actually REALLY difficult to get that kind of thing started. I’m not well-known enough to be able to sell my art for what it’s actually worth. And I can barely afford my supplies as it is.

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“Chicory.” 9×12″, ink and watercolor.

But for right now, at least, I do have a pretty good supplementary income from my Etsy shop – mostly from my traveler’s notebooks – and that provides about $50-$100 a month to fund my art habit. It doesn’t sound like much, but I go through a sketchbook every couple of months, notebooks require supplies, and I use at least a pad of watercolor paper every month…that adds up.

So I really, really appreciate everyone who has been supporting me. If you want to support me further, please remember, you DON’T have to spend money – just favoriting items from my shop, subscribing to my social media accounts, or just reading this blog, pushes me higher in search results, and that in turn results in more hits and sales on my shop.

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“Crystals.” 9×12″, ink and watercolor.

But if you do have a few bucks, there’s a lot of fun stuff on my Etsy shop – including my comic My Life On The Sidelines, notebooks and notebook supplies, and even some prints. Items range from $2 to $60-ish and there’s usually a sale going on.

Again, thank you so much to everyone who has been supporting me through this time. I have noticed a spike in Etsy orders, which is wonderful, and I hope this will continue. I’m just dreaming of the day that I won’t need a day job and can just draw and paint and make things for you guys all day. 🙂

I hope this wasn’t too much of a bummer. I just wanted to keep y’all updated. The reality is hitting me – that this is a Tower card moment, this is one of those moments of massive upheaval that throws everything off course. This, my friends, is a Saturn Return. (I turned 29 in June; this is normal, astrologically.)

I’m uploading more and more on my YouTube channel, so check it out if you’d like to hear me ramble about art, Tarot, and more. 🙂

All the best,

~Julian

Weekly Update 4-30-18 | Time Off, Game On!

Hey guys, it’s Julian. And I have been away.

Well, not really away. I’ve been right here, mostly making and packing and listing stuff for my Etsy shop. I hit 25 sales and I think Etsy’s algorithms must have (for some dumb reason) rewarded that, because all of a sudden I’m hecka busy and getting 3 orders a WEEK instead of 3 orders a month!

Like I said. Hecka busy.

I’ve been actually taking time off of my Tarot deck, and “artsy art” in general. I say artsy art because I NEVER want to say that things like design and bookbinding are not art. Making traveler’s notebooks and inserts is no less art than painting, so if you’re more a craftsperson than a painter, don’t ever say to yourself that you’re not an artist! But yeah, I’ve been working on bookbinding more than sketching or inking.

But it’s time to get back to it. My deadline for the inking of my Tarot deck is (hopefully) in mid-June, and I just found out I’m going on a super remote camping trip in May, so I really don’t have time to be taking a break.

I don’t really regret the break. I didn’t draw for about a week, and that’s okay. I was in the middle of losing a job and re-negotiating a lease, so I was emotionally exhausted and just couldn’t face the blank page on top of all that. All’s well now, though, and I really feel that it’s time for me to get my head back in the game.

Deciding when to take a break is not something I put a huge amount of thought into. If I’m too exhausted/overwhelmed/emotionally fried to deal with art, then my art is going to suffer anyway and I’ll have to take a longer break later, so unless I’m really close to a deadline, I don’t tend to think much of taking a break. I don’t take long breaks – rarely longer than a few days or a week – and I don’t plan my break. I don’t plan the end of it, at least. I just tell myself “I’m on break right now and I don’t need to think about work until I’m back to work.” Then, once I’ve been on break long enough to be able to think straight, THEN I think about getting back to work and when I should do that.

So that’s what I did this week. Monday I just said to myself “I feel dead, I’m working on losing a job and getting a new job, plus I have to deal with the leasing office, I’m exhausted. I’m going to take a break.” And it is Monday again and I didn’t really think about deadlines or workload or what percent I’ve finished, until yesterday. At which point…yes, I did freak out a bit and hurry back to work and inked 3 pieces.  And that’s freakin’ great! As long as I can finish my work, as long as the project gets done, I’m happy.

My point being: As much as possible, take breaks when you need to, and as much as possible, don’t stress while on break. But don’t let yourself STAY on break too long. I’m in a bit of a luxurious situation in that right now, at least, I CAN take a break from my art job for 5 days in a row. Not everyone can do that. I can’t break from my day job, but I can at least take away the stress of assigning myself 7-10 art pieces a week too.

Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can. And that goes for caring for yourself, too. 🙂

Anyway, thank you to everyone who’s been reading along, watching YouTube videos, buying from my shop…it’s awesome to have this much support. 🙂 I’m really excited about upcoming videos (and yes, there are upcoming videos!), and am going to continue to do 2 a week whenever possible. I really do appreciate everyone’s support, though. You guys are the bestest. 🙂

~Julian

Weekly Update 12/2/17 | Character-Building Experiences, Character Design, and THE PENCILS ARE COMING!!

[Pictured: Brush-inking practice piece. I’ve been learning brush inking for just a few weeks now but it is AMAZINGLY fun and useful!]

“Life is crazy, but so am I, so it suits me.” -me, five minutes ago

Yep, life has been pretty wild lately. I have been trying my best to work on my plans for 2018, as well as the Secret Project, while dealing with issues with my roommate and money and county health systems and and and…

Life is crazy. Let’s hope I’m crazy enough to meet its challenges, and grow from it. Yay character development!!!…not…

I’ve been hard at work developing the characters for Sidekick Goes Super, as well as doing more general preparations for 2018 projects. The first one, though, will be the first issue of SGS. Psst…I’m hoping to have copies for sale (and prints, and pins, and all kinds of other stuff) in my Etsy shop in February!!

Here’s a few of the characters…

Chad (The Sidekick):

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Redd (The Girl Next Door):

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Ash (The Wannabe Punk):

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Macie (The Librarian):

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And I have several more in the wings, waiting to be inked and introduced. 🙂

If you’d like to get updates on Sidekick Goes Super, please stay tuned to this page (and/or the Facebook page and tumblr!) and behold, ye shall be updated when I post anything on my homepage, and you’ll have a link to it. Ain’t technology grand?

Finally: YES, the Prismacolor pencils are on their way. Amazon is being a little shit because I’m not a Prime member, so they’re doing 2-day shipping on the very last possible day…sigh…so they should be here this Friday (Dec. 8, 2018). I’m hoping to be able to do a full box opening, walkthrough, and review, and while it may take a bit of work, I am DEFINITELY going to have that up at some point, both in video and text post format.

Anyway, this post is going up a day late due to poor time management on my part; for that, I do apologize. Thank you again to everyone who’s been supporting me thus far, and welcome to anyone who’s new!

~Julian

A non-Monday update?! MADNESS! | Upcoming Projects, 2018 Plans, and Comic Reveals!

[Pictured: Sketch of Redd from Sidekick Goes Super. Read on for more on that!]

Hey y’all!

I have some free time today, though it’s a Friday, so I figured I’d write up a post, though I’m really trying to post on Mondays regularly. I might not post this one til Monday, but we’ll see. 🙂

I’ve been thinking about future planning this month, more than I did last month…largely because last month was Inktober and I was busy as FRICK and couldn’t think ahead further than the next ink illustration. I’m thinking about December, but also 2018, which seems to loom above us like a monolith from 2001: A Space Odyssey or something!

I’m looking at doing 3 big projects: two comics and my Tarot deck.

The first comic is Sidekick Goes Super, a manga-style comic that at once pokes fun at and pays tribute to the “magical girl superhero team” trope, by focusing on their dorky male friend who acts as a sometimes-helpful sidekick but never ends up with the girl. Instead, Sidekick gives him a chance at breaking that trend. On a more serious note, Sidekick will explore the ups and downs of friendships between men and women, as well as what it means to be a guy, girl, or something else, in a world where to be born is to be put in a box and locked there until you grow beyond it.

Sidekick Goes Super will be a series, not a standalone comic, and the first “issue” will be out in February. You can read more about Sidekick here: https://www.julianjaymes.com/sidekick.

The second is tentatively called The Conversation, and it’s a darker, more philosophical comic about life, death, and human rights. It is probably going to be a very triggering comic, centering on the discussion between a girl about to commit suicide and a passerby who strikes up a conversation with her (hence the title.) Reader discretion is strongly advised.

The Conversation will be a 60-70-ish page comic, standalone, and will be available in fall 2018. You can read more about it here: https://www.julianjaymes.com/conversation.

I really appreciate everyone’s support of these projects. I have received a lot of really sweet comments on Instagram on my latest images for Sidekick Goes Super, including the one attached to this post. Hearing from people who like my work is just so wonderful. I get about 20 likes on most of my posts, and I cannot express how happy that makes me! I am still VERY new to Instagram, and I don’t know how to hashtag, but it makes me so happy to have people enjoying my work. 🙂

Sidekick is the first project I’ll be working on this year, followed by the Tarot deck, then another issue of Sidekick, then The Conversation. That’ll just about wrap up 2018 for me.B And of course there will always be random illustrations…and the Secret Project! Which I STILL CAN’T TELL YOU ABOUT. Agh! I promise…soon!!!

I’m really excited for this year, and I look forward to building this website, my portfolio, my brand, and just creating all year long. I’ll have a video with New Years resolutions and such in a month or so!

Abundant Blessings,

~Julian